my littLe worLd

a little to late?

2009-03-22T21:32:00.001-07:00

sometimes, in our lives, we just dont realize how much something means to us.. because we take it for granted, thinking that we deserve that just because.. we think we are better than others.. thinking back, so many things i want to change in my life.. but that wont let me learn anything from the experiences i had..
i dont know whether this is the feeling of being lonely or just realized how precious it was back then.. but 1 thing i do know: i miss that so much.. is it a little to late?

anyway, im loving claire guo right now.. love her songs.. and also katy perry!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0DUqQf1UwMM

its 2009!

2009-01-08T20:55:00.000-08:00

its been a while since my last post because i was tooo lazy.. hahahaha.. well, its been a great semester and i am very happy with the result i got.. it seems that my hard work is not futile after all.. =)

spending winter breaks with family in NY, DC, Boston, etc. in east coast area and it was so much fun.. i already miss them right now since they already went back to indonesiaa.. huUUUUuuuuu.. but i did a lot of shopping though.. got many things in my room which, as the result, makes my closet to be super fulllll! i want a bigger one! hahahahahAHaHAH~ maybe i will put some of my clothes in Han's closet.. since his is not very full or in other words 'almost ampty'.. hahaha~

well, right now i am crazy over this song..
the tittle is 'ji de' or remember by amei..
its a very sad song but i like it! hohohOh~ contain very deep meaning.. =)

誰還記得　是誰先說永遠的愛我
Who still remembers, who was the one who said he’ll love me forever
以前的一句話　是我們以後的傷口
A sentence of the past, will become our wound in the future
過了太久　沒人記得當初那些溫柔
It was so long ago, no one remembers the gentleness in the past
我和你手牽手　說要一起走到最後
You and I, hand in hand, we said we’ll walk together to the end
我們都忘了　這條路走了多久
We’ve both forgotten, how long we’ve walked in this journey
心中是清楚的　有一天　有一天都會停的
In our hearts it’s clear, that one day, one day it’ll all end
讓時間說真話　雖然我也害怕
Let time speak the truth, although I’m afraid too
在天黑了以後　我們都不知道會不會有遺憾
After the sky darkens, we won’t know whether there’ll be regrets
誰還記得　是誰先說永遠的愛我
Who still remembers, who was the one who said he’ll love me forever?
以前的一句話　是我們以後的傷口
A sentence of the past, will become our wound in the future
過了太久　沒人記得當初那些溫柔
It was so long ago, no one remembers the gentleness in the past
我和你手牽手　說要一起走到最後
You and I, hand in hand, we said we’ll walk together to the end
我們都累了　卻沒辦法往回走
We’re both weary, yet we cannot turn back
兩顆心都迷惑　怎麼說　怎麼說都沒有救
Both hearts are puzzled, no matter what we say, nothing can be helped
親愛的為什麼　也許你也不懂
My dear, I ask why, but maybe you don’t have an answer either
兩個相愛的人　等對方先說找分開的理由
Two persons in love with each other, waiting for each other to say a reason to break up
誰還記得愛情開始變化的時候
Who still remembers, when the love has just begun to change
我和你的眼中　看見了不同的天空
In our eyes, there’re different skies
走的太遠　終於走到分岔路的路口
We’ve walked too far, eventually reaching a crossroads
是不是你和我　要有兩個相反的夢
Is it that you and I, must have two contrasting dreams
誰還記得　是誰先說永遠的愛我

2008-11-17T02:05:00.000-08:00

i just realized that times are moving so fast.. its already november and its gonna be december soon.. finals are coming, and maybe everyone goes one by one.. just to think about that gives me shivers of how scary it is to live by myself.. i dont like to be alone.. i need someone to rely on.. haha~

i dunno why but i really love viva lavida by cold play.. keep listening to it in imeem while i am writing for my paper.. here i am stuck in my desk, thinking of what im gonna write to make my instructor impressed.. whoa~ not an easy work, isnt it?
i feel mellow now without any reason.. maybe because everybody is sleeping? and i havent finished my paper? hik-hik~

*just to think how fast the clock is ticking make me wonder can it sometimes be stopped even for a while? sometimes i just need to freeze the moment that i cannot experience twice..what time is it? dear clock please stop, im tired!

obama vs mccain?

2008-10-23T22:19:00.000-07:00

actually i dont care who will win since i will not able to vote, but i still support obama without any reason! i dunno why i do this, but is it because he allow people to have abortion? haha.. i dunno, never have one before! anyway
today i was very-very-very-very-very silly! i took the wrong bus and end up in Westowne mall.. wow, what a great place to be lost to! haha, great! just in time with my shopping needs! but i did not regret taking the wrong bus! because.. i can go shopping!ha~ha~ha~ha~ha..
btw, halloween is near and I wanna buy a costume! hope i can find one this weekend! so excited about the haunted house thing! =D

i am currently loving jay chou's new song

Hong Luo Meng Zhong

靜止了所有的花開遙遠了清晰的愛
天彌漫愛卻更喜歡那時候我不懂這場愛

你喜歡站在那窗台你好久都沒再來
彩色的世界染上空白是你留的淚暈開

不要你離開距離隔不開
思念變成海在窗外揀不來
原諒說太快愛成了阻礙
手中的風箏放太快回不來

不要你離開回憶劃不開
剪你的寵愛我在等待重來
天空仍在藍他挨著大海
情歌被打敗愛已不存在

你喜歡站在那窗台你好久都沒再來
彩色的世界染上空白是你留的淚暈開

不要你離開距離隔不開
思念變成海在窗外揀不來
原諒說太快愛成了阻礙
手中的風箏放太快回不來

不要你離開回憶劃不開
剪你的寵愛我在等待重來
天空仍在藍他挨著大海
情歌被打敗愛已不存在

* because my chinese is really-really bad~ so i just find an english translation of this lyrics.. hmm, how smart am I!

All the flowers are bloomy motionless, faraway, it was a clear love
Days filled with more love, at that time, I don't know this love

Do you like standing on the window
that you didn't come back for a long time ?
Color of the world in the white sky is the remain of your tears

Don't leave your distance from the non-open zone
The missing of the sea from this window never come back
Love quickly became the excuse that was obstructed
Kite quickly put in the hands of no return

Don't leave your memories that were not opened
I'm still waiting for you to come back
The sky still blue, he/she is next to the sea
The love song has been broken, the love doesn't exist anymore

Do you like standing on the window
that you didn't come back for a long time ?
Color of the world in the white sky is the remain of your tears

Don't leave your distance from the non-open zone
The missing of the sea from this window never come back
Love quickly became the excuse that was obstructed
Kite quickly put in the hands of no return

Don't leave your memories that were not opened
I'm still waiting for you to come back
The sky still blue, he/she is next to the sea
The love song has been broken, the love doesn't exist anymore

2008-10-13T22:07:00.000-07:00

Hot 'N Cold

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS
Like a bitch
I would know

And you over think
Always speak
Crypticly

I should know
That you're no good for me

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(you)You don't really want to stay, no
(but you)But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be
Just like twins
So in sync
The same energy
Now's a dead battery
Used to laugh bout nothing
Now your plain boring

I should know that
you're not gonna change

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bi-polar
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

I feel that this lyrics is very funny.. =D pLus.. i love the song..

fishing.. hhh~~

2008-10-11T23:33:00.000-07:00

oh noo.. i spent the entire saturday, which is supposed to be study day, fishingg.. =)) i fished twice a day.. and it did not go that well.. anyway, i got stung by a bee and i did not catch anything.. isnt it bad? Oh.. I hate bees! my finger still hurts sometimes.. well, i never got stung by a bee before, so I tell u, it hurts as hell in the first time.. *i think one of my friend almost call 911.. which is so silly, because.. I dont know.. do u call 911 because of a bee?

anyway, i hope i will be studying all day tomorrow. if not, i will feel guilty for my selg and for the whole next week.. =((((

blah blah blah*

2008-10-04T22:50:00.001-07:00

i hate how the things were going this week.. its.. unexplainable and horrible.. anyway, stop regretting the past.. it already happenned.. we cannot do anything to change it.. *sigh

what happen if ur good friend changes a lot? i mean, its not who he used to be now.. its so weirdd.. i feel sorry for him and wannna tell him to change.. but people seem to be never change.. yet even when he promised u.. he wont keep that promise.. i know that people sometimes agree with us just because they need something.. anyway, i feel that a good friend is one that can tolerate their friend's little mistake and remind them for the big ones.. i know its hard.. because we all are selfish.. always think that we are right.. but think twice when u think that u are better than the others.. r u always right? or it is u who are wrong?

anyway, pictures from weekend =)

weird handaraaa

he is so weird this way, i force him to use the crazy red hat of mine! muahahaha.. and he scared that i will pinch his chest! soo, he used it!

new hello kitty bag, what do u thinkk..? *cute...

2008-09-29T08:09:00.000-07:00

1 month ago..

last week..! i cut my poni... =) and use glassesss..

anyway.. i have two lovely fishh..(actually its just blue gill and i catched it myself in the lake) namedd.. scrappy and coco. i always tell ppl that i know which one is scrappy or coco.. but the fact is i am not suree..soo i just call them coco or scrappy or.. sometimess hanhan.. ahhh.. just kiddingg.. =) btw this is coco's picture.. (or scrappy's?)

hey hanhan! u look really nervouss..!

dunno what to do in weekend?

2008-09-27T17:04:00.000-07:00

it is what i feel during this weeken.. pretty boring thoughh.. i dont understand why people asking me whether JM is my boyfriend or my crushh..?? well, it is pretty clear that JMN is JOHN MEYER for God Sakee..! huhhh.. i wonder why people dont know this.. it is just too long to be typed on msn.. plus.. i am THAT lazy in typing other's name..=pp

anyway, i got new piercings in my ear in CLair's.. i am so surprised that we have to do many paper work in order to get ear piercing.. it is soooo weirddd.. and it does not hurt.. =))maybe its me who are too brave.. =DD

I watched a dance performance in Lathrop hall this afternoon.. and it was.. ummm.. WEIRD.. the weirdest dance i hv ever seenn..! not to go to that kind of performancee... its not worthedd.. !! better to go to a circuss and enjoy that kind of shows since there is little difference.. btw, the coreographer is Li Chiao Ping.. i guess.. I just dont like that kind of dance.. it was STRANGE.. extremely incomprehensible.. dont understand what it meanss.. =(

mimi mondaY,,

2008-09-15T08:11:00.000-07:00

i hate mondayyyy.. hate-hate-hate-hate-hate.. i wanna have weekend all the year arounnnnd... =) should post more often, but i was so busy with school works.. anddddd i just found out that i love fishinng... just bought a new PINK fishing rod.. but its not BARBIEEE..! im not a 8 year-old u knowww.. what makes me buy BARBIE fishing roodd? anyway.. I LOVE FISHING!

summer fever~

2008-07-23T07:57:00.000-07:00

yeSs.. its a tiring summer after all.. have to complete courses that i hate! huHhh.. but the bright side isssss..... i learn so much in my ballet classs..! love it! hope i can take ballet II in UW.. if i could chose my profession, i would chose to be a ballerina..! such a beautiful dancer should be appreciated because of the wonderful work! haa.. so i wanna be : pianist, violinist, and ballerina..! such an awful dReam.. hoHOho~ i guess everyone have a dreamm.. i have mine now.. but its still a 'dream'.. maybe one day~ haha!

missing dad~

2008-03-25T20:20:00.000-07:00

i miss my dad so much right now.. wish he were here.. i wanna hug him so much.. wanna tell him how much i love him.. wanna say thank you for everything he does for me and for LOVING me so much..

im holdin' on... to make-uP =p

2008-03-23T13:37:00.000-07:00

spring break is over.. it is very sad that i have to face the reality that i got many things to be done.. hoO~ but that's better than if i do nothing at home.. =)

i shopped like crazy at mine.. it is all because of jenn.. really don understand why they ( sil and jen) shop so fast.. and i am very slow.. hik2.. i think a lot before i decide to buy something.. ho~ like it or not but that's me.. i think i am the slowest person in the world if u take me to shop.. =)

and.. i become a make-up-aholic.. because of jenn too.. she taught me what i have to buy.. and what i have to do.. and eventually i ended up with watching make-up tutorial at youtube everyday.. yaYYy.. haha~ thx jenn for letting me know this kind of stuff.. =)

the thing i bought in minee.. plus the horrible condition of my bed room.. x.X

worst dat i Madison

2008-03-13T10:33:00.000-07:00

the worst day in Madison happenned in my life.. its worse than when i got BC for my eng 117 paper.. ho~ i really think i wanna die.. can u die when u sleep..? haha~ and i quit the deli job because of no obvious reasons given by my parents.. really can't understand them.. and i was in a very bad mood that i did not go to any of my class today.. isnt it great? it the first time i skipped my whole class in one day.. im really pissed off.. im in a very-very bad sHape..

disappointed..

2008-03-12T03:49:00.000-07:00

there is really something disappointed about my friend.. i think i am the foolest people of the most idiot person in this woRld.. haha~ i knew that!i knew that! i knew this would happen! no words need to be explained if there are indeed true.. Dont expect people to be what you wants.. because it is impossible.. a snake will always be a snake, they wont turn into a dog or something.. hoo~
i think ite the most ridiculous proverbs ive ever made.. haha~ pathetic~ well, here i am blogging at 6 am in the morning.. i must be the craziest person in the world.. got 2 exams coming but i just cant concentrate.. huaa~ i am going crazy.. cant study in a reallyy bad-bad mood.. i just wanna kill my self.. really pissed off..~ why~oh why? hahaha~ see? im turning crazy..!

well, i am crazy over this song too.. =) really nice!

violina viola~ lol`

2008-03-10T20:47:00.001-07:00

i finally won bidding this new violinnn hahaha~ i am happy that i'll be having this violin sooonnn.. yeahhH~ i can feel the spirit of music in me now~ hahaha~ i also bought the book : suzuki violin volume 3 because i already finish until volume 2 i think.. from last time i leanr violin.. =) soo.. im gonna learn to play it by my self.. hahHAhaha~ what do u think about the violin.. i'll try to play it and post it in a blog if i can.. hihi~

pathetic sunday..

2008-03-09T21:04:00.000-07:00

today i was totally at home.. hmmm.. what a boring thing to do : studying~ i guess im gonna die if i keep doing this my whole life.! feel like in prison, sitting on the same chair 24 hours~ makes me mad..well, but at least i was very happy on saturday.. elis was havin her birthday surprise while we were hunting for the easter egg.. so, we painte the easter egg and we put our message on those eggs, and all of us put our birthday wishes to elice.. and when we finished hunting the egg, we ask her to open them one by one.. and she started crying.. huUUuu~ i thin i almost cry too.. i dunNno why..? OMG.. why i always wanna cry if i see someone else is crying..? i really love eLis and wants her to be my sister.. I hope she could marry my bro.. =p she's really kind to me.. i couldnt believe that she is going to chicago on august.. i almost cry too when i say to her that im gonna miss her a lot when she is gone.. T.T

mac or toshiba~?

2008-03-06T21:59:00.000-08:00

its time for me to get my new laptop.. * remember the mango juice accident.. >.< haha~ and i am very confused : mac or toshibaa..? well, i like mac because the design is gorgeous.. hMmm.. whereas, toshiba.. hMm.. not bad but the design is so simple.. and mac is not using windows.. so its gotta be hard using something strange that i never use before.. its the only reason im considering toshiba to be my new laptop.. hm~ dunno lahHH.. depend on my mood.. btw, i saw the macbook aiR.. and it is soo thin.. i couldnt believe it~ but i think if i bought that, it will be broken in no more than a month..=( hhihi~
my craziness over ballet is over, and i decided to buy violin..~ soo, i am searching for violin right now.. =) hoo~ so busy lately.. many works to do~ but i do enjoy my life..
anyway, i met ciggy~ a siberian husky puppy.. *i think its not a puppy, because it is soo bigg.. =) andd i fall in love with himm.. when i first met him.. he was running toward me and licked me.. hooOo~ i love u ciggy.. u are soo cute.. soo i let him jump over my face and he loves to lick it.. haha~ i like his fur which is soo thick and fluffy... i hug him as though i didnt want to let him goo.. haha~ so cute..~ hope to meet him again some other time.. i really miss shiro when i see other's dog.. oH~ my lovely shiRoo..

horror maniac~

2008-03-04T19:34:00.001-08:00

sometimes when i hv a lot of problems, wathching horror movies is the only way out for me.. why*? first: its scary, second: it makes me feeling intrigued, third: it will drive me out of my thoughts for several mins.. isnt it cooL? sooo.. i rented many Horror DVD's hahahaha~
well, i really want the toe shoes.. but i think the one i bid was sold.. T.T sOOoo.. i hv to search again for it.. because actually i dont know how to convert the usual size to the 'toe shoes' size.. such a worthless effort..
today's work sucks.. i dont like my 'temporary' co-worker.. he did not help me although he knew i need help.. such a no-no guY!.. he just left me lifting the heavy pile and the water eventually spilled out to the floor and my shirt.. what kind of guy is that? oh~ i just want my female co-worker back.. she is in vacation~ really wants her.. so tired today.. T.T
anyway.. here is my self-taken photo in my new home.. i think i just keep it in without remembering to post it.. >.< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://bp0.blogger.com/_Xw61cSiA8vs/R84ZQym9_XI/AAAAAAAAACY/zZu5sG27OgY/s1600-h/IMG_3656.JPG">my best friend~ eeyooree..

2008-03-02T18:26:00.001-08:00

today is an unusual day for me.. i became super lazy, yet i did not know what happened to me.. i usually become nervous or at least 'dilligent' when exam comes.. but i dont feel anything right now.. just wanna sleep.. hmm~ its like, i don care about anything.. ~ i really don know what happened to me.. and i don feel anything, its just empty.. oh~ i dunno.. welll, i guess i can feel 'something' from blogging.. ~~
well, this couple of days/.. ive been crazy over ballet.. i love to see the ballerina gracefully doing the pirroutes and i was amazed.. i wonder what will i look like if i become a ballerina? wow~ if i were a man, i would fall in love with ballerina, the reasonn? isnt it obvious : they are pretty, skinny, and wonderful.. i love to seem them dancing with the toe shoes.. ohHHh~ how i wanna wear them.. and.. this crazy idea came to my head : i browsed e bay for toe shoes.. hmMm.. and i just bid one of used toeshoes with my size.. * yeaHH.. i think i am crazy.. but i really want to try them in my feet.. *curious what it feels like on those amazing shoes..~ whOooaa..

anywayy, i watched the film 'notebook' and i think it was indeed a romantic yet touching.. i just can't believe if there is a boy like that.. i guess it is just a kind of the boy every girls dream to be with.. he is just soo patient with his wife, reading the story and then the wife will just remember about them for 5 mins.. and she would forget.. and he has to do this every day.. soo.. sad~ hoaAaaa~ i dont think such boy exist in this world..

hate myseLf

2008-02-29T07:36:00.000-08:00

i set up my alarm at 6:15 a coz i know, i wont wake up ontime.. so i set my alarm 1 hour earlier.. andd i snoozed that alarm.. and finallly.... i end up at 8:40.. and my discussion class iss 8:50~ Ohhh.. i wanna die.. so i rush into my bathroom and sit down for several minutess.. and finally decided not to take a shower because its too late.. soo.. i walk from home to school.. and when i start to hikinh the bascom hill.. i realized that its already 9:10.. and i did not want to embarrass my self, so i decided to go home by bus.. isnt that silly? i mean.. i went to school for nothing.. i hate myself.. huH~ or maybe.. i couldnt wake up because im having an awful dream? huh~ soooOooo.. annoying..
lately, i keep my self busy so that i can catch up my school.. i really want to change from my 'super lazy' side.. ho~
btw, i realized that it just snowed maybe several hours ago.. and really, snow makes me remember a lot of thinGs.. hmmmm~ its not good..~ i wish i can brainwash my head.. xD
sometimes what u see is not what u think it is..
maybe ppl can act to be so happy, but in his/her heart, he/she is the saddest person among all..

workin'

2008-02-27T20:59:00.000-08:00

i got a job at ICU Deli as a deli worker last monday, and i was so nervous because it was my first time working.. i think everybody got confused when i said i want to work because i am a very independent person last semester.. i think everybody sees me as a little girl who always get what i want.. hmm, at least its half true right? well, i just want to show everyone that i am NOT that kind of girl because i've grown up.. dont judge ppl from their appearance! huh~
anywaee, actually i am a little bit scared because i never work before.. but that's okay.. everybody got to learn something new right? =) i am happy that my co-worker is kind.. she taught me everything with patience, of course.. because i keep asking her what i should press for the items i dont know.. i was so embarassed when i made mistake.. i kept saying 'sorry' to the customer because i am so slow.. searching the right key is soo hard.. i have to read one by one and got confused sometimes.. and eventually got panicked! hahaha~ i hope i wont do this again in the future!
hmM~ yesterday i didnt sleep becasue of LUckyy..~ he came to my house and talk to me about many things.. and the consequence is... i end up walking with my eye closed on the pathway.. and i hit the concrete.. sooo~ embarassing.. hoo~ i always hope i could sleep while walking.. i couldnt event keep my eyes open this afternoon.. x.X
i watched indonesian movie today called "kangen" because i was bored and i found the film is so boring.. i dunno why, but i think i decided to watch it because i love Bunga Citra Lestarii~ my favourtire indonesian actreesss.. well, she is not that pretty in this movie.. but i like the beginning though.. its quite funny.. but in the middle of it, i think that the movie is not natural anymore.. ho~ boring..
for those who want to know what bunga looks like.. here it is.. and i love this song so much..

beautifuL giRL

2008-02-23T22:11:00.001-08:00

i remeber i watched 200 pounds beauty when i was in indo.. i was so in love with the movie that i was crying in the end of it.. its just sooo touching.. and after searching its songs and finally find it.. hUmmMMm.. the one with the tittle " beautiful girl is so cute.. and i love this songg.. the mv is soo funny tOooo.. kim ah joong is soooo beautifuL..
anywaeee.. i met new friends : SK and ran.. they are soo fuunny.. hHAhha.. i always laugh when talking too themm.. huMMmmm.~~ this is one of my ceonversation with SK:
SK : do u know that every mandarin name has its korean name?
me : ooHHhhh~~ i dunnOoo.. is that sooOO.. thats greatt..~
Sk : yeaHhhh.. every korean has chinese and korean name..
me : well, i hope my name is Kim Ah jOoonnng.. because she is sooo beautifulll.. *smiling widely and and i think SK is scared
SK : uMmmmnn~~~ ( with a weird expression in his face) *hihi~ sooriie SK..
well, i dunno whats SK first impression with mee.. but i like them.. i am looking forward to have lunch with them againn.. ^^ i am so happy that SK is fans of horror movies tooo..~~~ oOOohHH.. i got a friend who is 'normal' like mee...^^ finally.. and the weird thing is.. SK lives in Shorewood, the place i just left.. isnt it weird? u meet ppl after u leave the place that has connection with him? huahua.. i guess its called faith.. soo weiRd..
a friend of mine posted a video of how the cruel farmertreat the animal for their fur.. when im watching this, i almost cry.. how cruel they are.. dont they see such a cute animall with the innocent eyes..? i couldnt believe this.. i think the world has turned out crazy.. they should have gone to hell.. i hope they die like those animals.. ohh.. so poooR.. really cant stand those cute creature being treated like that.. i wanna kill theM! hooo..~
beautiful girl-kim ah joonng

finally~

2008-02-21T17:24:00.000-08:00

whoaaa.. i finally finished my 2 examm.. cannot believe it myself that now i temporarily free from torture.. well, i dunno the resuLt.. and 2morro my econ exam will be returned back, and i got nervouS, u hv to get 92 for A.. and its hhhuu.. dont hv confident to get such a high score.. and i heard my math 210 professor said that there's a lot of people get 100 in the previous exam.. and i also get very nervouS.. how about the cuRve... how do they get such perfect scores.. huaaa..~ scaRed to deaTh..
anywae, i spilled out my mange juice on my laptop.. and guess what? the keyboard isnt working preperly plus it gets some sticky yet crispy feeling when you type.. poor laptop.. u shouldnt hv a careless master like me..! huahuhua.. how am I suppose to laugh? crazy mee.. >.< thennNNn.. i want a new laptoppp..!
todat i watched ultimate gift and i dont quite understand the stoRy.. but it looks OK i think.. i like the part when the girl said her dream to have a perfect day.. its like so touching because she said 'it finished'.. then me? whats my dream? of course not just a perfect day.. tons of themm..! i guess im tooooo greeedyy.. actually, i dont know what is the word 'perfect' means.. the 'perfect' for you and for me are different.. and i think i've never have a perfect day.. maybe 'half perfect'~

current song : Ni~ariel lin ( its an OST for ISWAK 2)
its goood, yet sweet..! yayyYy.. love it.!

你 - 林依晨

風輕輕我聽見你聲音
你對著我叮嚀要注意自己的心情
雨輕輕我聽見你聲音
你拿著傘靠近為我遮著風擋著雨
一點點想哭泣一點點想著你
你的愛很珍惜我總依賴著你的記憶

你就像風在說話順著我方向
你就像海中的波浪堆著我成長
我明白你的回答溫柔的對話
愛情其實沒有辦法不被感動吧我不說謊

Wind gently blows and I can hear your voice
You have advised me to beware of my own emotions
Rain gently falls and I can hear your voice
You draw near with your umbrella to shield the wind and rain for me
A little bit wanting to cry, a little bit thinking of you
Your love is being cherished, I am always relying on your memories

You seem to be talking like wind, following my direction
You seem to be the waves in the sea, making me grow up
I understand your answer, a gentle dialogue
There is no way for love to not be touched, I won't lie

dear diary

2008-02-19T14:31:00.000-08:00

i found a sweet song by mocca in imeem and i fell in love with this song.. its so sweet, i dunno what to describe this song but i like the tone.. its mellow and i like those kinds of song.. i dunno what the real meaning behind the lyrics of the song, but i think the girl wants to end up her relationship.. it is torturing not to love someone who is indeed your boyfriend.. hooO... how could that happen ya? maybe she just bored with the guy.. hahHAha.. i dunNno.. dont caRe.. hmmMMm... but thats too cruel.. >.<

i recently found my favourite thing to do : thingking in the middle of the night in my new bedroom.. i feel relaxed every time i look outside my bedroom window.. the view is magnificent.. i remember what my korean friend said before : we need sometime to just sit and think.. huMmm.. sometimes i just make my wishes to the dark sky, hoping someone would hear my lament.. maybe the clouds will give me a smile.. hMMm.. i wonder is there anyone doing this useless thing as i do? this is very childish but sometimes i believe that there are angels up in the sky like in cinderella.. and when u feel sad and depressed, the angel will sooth you by giving you the things you like.. like candy or new dresses..=p

2 mids on its wayy to ruin my weekenDsss.. T.T

2008-02-16T16:14:00.000-08:00

yaPPp.. i got 2 mid next week and its killing me.. im now still dunno if i wanna attend the valentine event held by permias or noo.. becausee i havent studyy.. im a real slackerr.. ohh NOoo.. and the internet thing makes me gone maD.. huhuhuhu.. yesterday is a blast.. everyone seems to have a good time.. we took a lot of photos and probably will out it on facebook as soon as there is internet in my home..! hHahahaa im happy to hear everyone like my new homme... they said its homyy.. huMmm.. i feel that way toOO.. hm-hm-hm-hmmm..
i bet eko and diana had a wonderful time last night.. *envy themmm soo muuuUUchh* ~wondering what are they doinng right now? hUhuhU.. ~happy biRthday syLvia and diaNa~ luv youuuU..
btw, today is the first time i help handara cook.. and it is terrifyingg.. im scared because the fire just burst out from the stove and i screamed. hAhahahahh.. its really2 funny that the smoke detector sounds really weird for almost 5 minutes.. *cant stand it.. actually i explained the phenomena to Han that he loves to cook, tidy the house, wash the dishes, study at home ~ isnt it sounds like a housewive? and me? i dont like to cook, or tidy the house, or wash the dishes or study at home, and the worst thing is im not 'tender' like Han.. im fierce~several ppl said this.. i like to yell at everybody.. huHUhu.. and i told this to Han : " Hann ure mee inside of a boy's bodyy and i am u inside of a girl's body.. i am suppossed to be born first.. not uu..!" hahaha.. and we just laughh..

I dunno why this song is very addicting.. can anybody tell me why? humMMmm.. pretty bunngaaa.. wanna be like uu.. hihihihi..~~

aku dan dirimuu..

Tiba saatnya kita saling bicara
Tentang perasaan yang kian menyiksa
Tentang rindu yang menggebu
Tentang cinta yang tak terungkap

Sudah terlalu lama kita berdiam
Tenggelam dalam gelisah yang tak teredam
Memenuhi mimpi-mimpimu malam kita

[Reff:]
Duhai cintaku, sayangku, lepaskanlah
Perasaanmu, rindumu, seluruh cintamu
Dan kini hanya ada aku dan dirimu
Sesaat di keabadian

Jika sang waktu kita hentikan
Dan segala mimpi-mimpi jadi kenyataan
Meleburkan semua batas
Antara kau dan aku, kita

lazyyyy..

2008-02-15T12:56:00.000-08:00

why i always sleep at 9 and wake up at 8? why i always feel reluctant to do my homework? why i wanna sleep so bad although its only 3 pm? why i always think about rubbish? dont i have anything more important to think? huhUHU.. dont understand it myself.. im mad with my new home because it doesnt have internet connection until noww..! its already friday, and i still need to suffer from internet... HUhuHUuHU.. i think its why i could not submit my hw ontime.. =p or its just me who are too lazy..? i like to hear indonesian songs recently, and i dont know why.. its just addicting.. huMmmM..

btw, its been 1 day after valentine and i think this is the saddest valentine ever..! i remember those times when i received a bucket of white rose and a box of bears from a boy in my high schooL.. and i still keep wondering.. why white rose? isnt it the flowers for dead people? and i decided to give it to my best friend.. hMMm.. i dunno why but i think im not supposed to keep the things from the ppl who are not special for me that time.. soo.. i just give it to a friend of mine.. but the weird thing is.. i keep the bears.. because its tooo cute.. =) and there's time when a boy in my junior high gave me a big bear in front of all of my friends.. its too embarassing.. and i just gave it to my friend.. i wonder what he felt if he knows what i did with that bear.. >.<

today im gonna held an event at my new home.. hMmmm.. *excited*
wish that everybody will have a good time.. =)
*Happy Valentine everyone*

current song : klik -Ussy

not a friend? or pain in the ass? ooOOOHhhh~~

2008-02-12T12:23:00.000-08:00

i dunno if i have ever hurt someone before.. sure i did but that didnt count because feeling is not the thing you can force right? i mean a friend maybe? i dunno.. i always do the best i could do for my friends event if he/she is not a good friend of mine.. event if he/she hates me, i'll try my best to be nice to them.. sometimes i just wonder, why there is such a person who hates me that much? i tried to be nice but it didnt work.. well, i always think he/she is not that kind of person.. well, who knows they changed.. i dont really know.. just wanna be friends thats all.. im not gonna take advantage from you or something right? i am the person who will consider someone's saying the whole day if it hurts me.. haha.. im that kind of person..

btw, i really don wanna know if he/she are exactly what im thinking of right now, but i just have to let it go.. its not my problem anymore.. it keeps bothering me the whole day.. sometimes what i see is just something that i have to ignore.. its really NOT a concern for me anymore..

new home.. =)

2008-02-11T11:14:00.000-08:00

i just moved to my new home.. and i just love it! hMmmm.. love all things there.. except the fact that i couldnt find the bus to campus.. huAA... i walked today to campus.. do u believe that..? but its pretty amazing that i could get to the class on time..! hahaha.. the first time i went to school not by bus or car.. and the saddest thing iss... there is no internet connection yet at my new home.. sooo.. basically i do nothing there.. no TV, no internet.. what else can i do? beside sleeping and studying? ohh.. plus.. i havent get my study table yet.. =( soo.. basically i just sit down beside the kitchen and do the hw.. kind of sadd..
* i hope everybody who is struggling with their school or interview can do well.. wish them luckk..! ooPPs..im going to hv a midterm too this week sooo.. wish me luuckk.. =) =)

=)

2008-02-07T13:30:00.000-08:00

today i feel happy.. hMm.. too lazy to study.. but so many things have to be done.. and i'm having the first mid term ever in my second semester on feb 14! its on valentine day! huuUUu.. well, i dont hv anyone special right now.. but still its val's day! all class should be canceled.. hahHAhaha. because its a loving day.. not a study dayyy.. !

current song : sempurna - andra and the back bone.. just.. perfect! for everybody who is in love.. =p

very2 late hw..=p

2008-02-06T00:21:00.000-08:00

i am going to have theathre and drama dis tomorrow and i got 2 hw due.. and the worst is.. i havent done the hw yet.. its killing me and haunted me every second.. huUUU.. so, here i am 2 30 in morning, when ppl go to sleep and have a sweeet dReamm.. typing the paper due tomorrow.. it really is killing mee..! hooOOOooOOOooOO.. hate liteRaturee..!
btw, there is something funny that make burst laughing.. hOOoooo.. sooo.. i'll provide my e-maiL.. and u ca read it by ur seLf..

Dear Stephanie:

The material presented the RRC seminars is COMPLETELY INACCESSIBLE

to the average sophomore, let alone a freshman. How can I possibly justify

extending this consent? What degree are you pursuing?

Best,

Chair, Rheology Research Center

Professor of Mechanical Engineering

University of Wisconsin

On Feb 5, 2008, at 6:56 PM, STEPHANIE ANINDYA UTOMO GO wrote:

Dear Prof. Giacomin :

i really interested in this class and hope to continue although i am still a freshman. could you please let me continue on this class? thank you very much.

sincerely,
stephanie

well, do u guys wanna know what i feel? it is very embarassing.. sooo Lameee.. actually i wanna drop it.. but since its 1 credit class and an easy a.. i feel soooo humMm.. dunnno.. i don wanna let goo.. hik2.. and i dunno how to aswer himm.. anybody got an idea..?

bokuwa kuma kuma kumaaa...~~~

2008-02-05T05:19:00.000-08:00

hooOOo i just found this cute song from utada hikaruu.. just by seeing the video makes me smile all the time.. the bear is really cutee.. ^^ the tittle is bokuwa kuma..i need to find something that can make me happy this time.. and im just trying to.. hMmm.. i dream about something that makes me sad.. hahha.. no no no no no.. dun wanna remember that agaiinnn.. huUUUUuuuu.. plis God, let me start a new life.. hmm.. sooo.. i proudly preseeennnnt bokuwa kumaaa.. ^^

moooove~

2008-02-04T05:54:00.000-08:00

im feeling better right now.. dunno why, it keeps changing all the time..
im moving out very sooonn.. and im a little excited with that.. my new home is gonna be right in front of the overture centre, near the capitpoL.. and its one of luxurious condos in here.. i guess thats one of the reason why i move.. hmMmmm.. i know its not gonna be past times when we hang out together and talk a lot.. but im pretty sure im gonna love this my new home.. hihi.. look at the bright side.. a beautifeul condo is waiting for me.. and its gonna easy to find some restaurant on state street if i wanna eat..hmmmm.. =)

2008-02-02T20:21:00.000-08:00

feeling very low right now.. wish i have someone to cry to.. someone to comfort me and say that everything will be fine.. but in fact i hve lost several friends of mine.. and it makes me very sad right now.. because it means that less ppl are concerned about you.. sometimes im just confused with the ppl who always by themselves.. they dont need anyone to share their problems with or just laugh with them.. isnt it so lonely? i dont understand at all.. i dunno why but i wanna be them right now.. so that i wont feel this.. its just so depressing..

drop-dont-drop-dont-drop-dont..

2008-01-31T14:17:00.000-08:00

i am having a dilemma right now.. drop or dont drop? wahhh.. huMmm.. teateR is very confuSInng.. i read the play several times and i don clearly understand all the meaning.. wahhH.. why is literature is requireD? don underStad at all.. i love to read but just hate to analyze or learn what i read.. i hate to take it seriously.. and i hate to write essay.. justt hate it! it seems hard for me.. i am not ready for this.. hmMMm.. math 213 is a better choice i guess.. i really want to take literature in college.. haha.. hate it so muhchH.. feel so dumb in writing essays, make me lose my confident of myself.. huhUHUhuhuhuhuhuuhuHUH.. feel dizzy right now.. guess i better sleep.. love to sleep.. can i get an A only by sleeping? hahahhaaHAHA.. i hope there will be a sleeping 101 class in the futuRE.. i guess i'll have A+++ in that couRse.. or dreaming 101? hihIHIhi.. im a day-dreameR so i gueSs i can get full mark fo thoSee... zzZzzzZzzZzz...

2008-01-30T11:11:00.000-08:00

today i feel better.. i don know why either.. maybe my mood is just not too good on the las couples of days.. sometimes only time can take our worries away.. and that works for me.. although i dunno how its gonna be in future time.. but at least for now.. i feel much better for myself.. haha..
today, i was indeed very silly.. i went to van hise for class and i searched for B floor.. which is not exists.. and i opened my uw account.. and realize that its in van vleck.. not van hiSe.. very silly lahH.. and the worst thing is.. im searching for the room B137 which is doesnt exist in van vleck either.. i asked someone and he said.. "sorry, i cant help u.." and after severeal minutes of searching, i opened my uw account again.. and guess wahtt..? it is B317 no B137.. woWOoo.. today i am a veryy uMmm.. *i dun wanna say bad things about myself.. hahaha.. so i rush to B317 and its already 10 mins late.. haha.. wish my mood wont change.. i don wanna remember things that make me feel very lonely right now.. last semester i was very independent.. and i wanna change it.. because im a big girl now..

gloomy semester..

2008-01-29T14:59:00.000-08:00

i hv never been so lonely like this.. it seems like i don hv any friend.. its just so different from my last semester.. i was really happy.. i never feel lonely.. everyone was there for me.. no barriers between us to be together.. it seems little awkward now if we meet each other because of me.. everyone's having a hard time.. and thats because of me.. if i could turn back the time.. i prefer not to have annything special.. just become friends and be able to play together are just fine.. sometimes there are things u can't change.. and when u look back, u will regret all the things u did.. i miss the times when we were playing cards in friday night until 1 am in the morning.. or when we play wii or ps together.. or just having dinner together in someone's house.. its just more than perfect.. no worries between us.. i really miss those times.. i really want to say sorry for myself and all my friends.. never thought it will end like this..

big girLs dont cry .. =)

2008-01-28T02:46:00.001-08:00

i finally in maDisn today.. and i slept like a baby until 9 pm ad slept again until 3 30 am morning..! i can't sleep anymore.. too much sleep alreadyy..! sooo this is what ppl call jet lag.. huhuhu.. so toRtuRing when u awake with no one to talk to.. hik2..
i wonder sometimes what is the difference between adults and children..? i was so shocked when the officer at the immigration ask me how old am i.. *maybe because i was alone and confused why there's a little girl travelig on her own.. he asked me : " How old r u ? u look like 12.." whaattt... 12...! *@#$&*% that's very sick.. dont u see im 18..? hahhahaha.. *sometimes i feel lucky because if someone think u r 12, u r a child in their heads.. and i like to be a little girl because i just love cute things.. i just cant chage me the way i am.. ad what i learnt this holiday is.. if u r an adult u can hide ur feelings ad pretend nothing happenned in front of the society, adults are just considering how other ppl think about them, they just cant be true to their hearts sometimes.. and that is a big no-no to children.. if they hate someone they just yell at them and sometimes just punch their friends, or.. just cry and dont wanna play with them anymore.. and i just realized taht i have maybe 50% of their character.. its just.. so childish, and i hate it.. (not that i have ever punch someone's face) everyone who knows me must know what im writing.. so here i am.. trying to be a big girl without complaining about anything.. because big girls dont cry.. i ve been very selfish in past times.. just think what i like, what makes me happy.. and i just wanna say sorry..

inDo~

2008-01-02T21:02:00.000-08:00

i finally in indo now.. i have thought many activities to do here but still i dunno why i get bored here.. seems like i am too lazy to do the task i have arranged earlier.. but still here is my goal in indo :
1. get slimmer and lose weight --> i am pretty sure that i will not satisfy this goal! i have an uncontrollable appetite when it comes with the word 'food' especially sushiii... wahHHhh..
2. practice piano and put some video in this blog as the evidence of me practicing piano.. ~ still, i think i will not satisfy this either..
3. read as many books as i can when i have spare time.. ~hmmmm.. sometimes i am too lazy.. soo... i dont think i will do this.. T.T
4. go shopping with my indo friends.. ~this will definitely satisfied!
5. watch horror movies with elice ( at least 5 movies!) ~ i am pretty sure this will happen since me and elice are horror movie freaks!
6. change my hairstyle that will surprise everyone when im back to madison.. ~ hmm.. maybe i will dye my hair or perm it..? or make it more straight than before..? still thinking..
7. take many photoS with my cute shiRooo and post them in this blog.. ~its gonna be hard since shiro always running around all the time..! he cant behave well if im around! is it means he is too happy if he sees me? wHahhHh..
8. go to medan to see handaRa and his cute puppies.. ~love it!
9. go to wang lee hom concert on 11 Jan 08 at Sands..~ i will ask for the tickets soon! i have to see him because he's too hot!
10. meet my friends at my old school.. ~ wahhh.. miss them soo mucHh.. * muahh2

so.. thats all for this winter break and i hope i could satisfy all of themm..

huMmm.. thinking about madiSon and how far i have to go to reach madiSon.. i got a trauma becuase i recently had the most torturing flight i ever had in my life.. it is when i flew form La to Taipei.. its like a total hell for me.. 18 hours in plane with stomachache, moreover.. i puked 3 times! can u believe it? It was the first time i puke at a plane! and i knew everyone including the stewardess are having a hard time because of this.. hik2.. i was just so sick that i didn't eat anything on the plane.. it was a total hell for me.. and i think it was because i drank too much coke? i dunno laHh.. dun wanna experience the same thing again..!

happy new yeaR everyone! here is a wish fRom pooh family..!

2007-12-19T12:52:00.001-08:00

i guess i did pretty bad on my finaL.. so sad right now that i could not think of anyhting else but the final.. the questions keep running and running in my head.. often catching myself in a daze .. blank.. too sad to my self.. all of my hard work during this fall semester is useless.. kind of sad.. but i tried to make this to a lesson my self.. i wont procrastinate again. i have to change the way i study.. its not bout grade actually.. its about my self-conscious about my responsible being a student myself.. i knew i did not work hard in my high school.. becase i had my own private tutor.. hik2.. i have to be independent..

2007-12-14T16:48:00.000-08:00

today is gonna be a busy day.. i think i will stay in library until late nite.. >< not much to think about bcos all things running in my head is just the final.. i think im gonna be crazy soon..

stressss...

2007-12-12T20:57:00.000-08:00

wahhh.. final is just next week..! can u believe it..? i dont realize that i am going home soon until i know that final is waiting next week.. i think i am gonna die soon.. so many i have to study.. what am i gonna do? i am very confused where should i start to study.. it just.. too muchh..! i hope im gonna make it well in final.. ^^ good luck all..! study.. study..! i just ate at an ethiopian restaurant which name i forgot but... the food is not so good.. i think it is a quite expensive.. because i dont like it that much.. if i could, i think i would forced han to eat at yummy buffet..! whah..

right now, i really want to be a vet... because first of all, i wanna be doctor but i couldnt.. second, i love pets.. especially dogs.. hahahah.. ^^ but i think my parents will never allow me to be a vet.. because it seems like people in jkt don't love their pets that much.. like my mum... ><

current song : you and me - lifehouse
current mood : =)
quote for today : " Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up."

no sLeep.. thank you..^^

2007-11-28T20:49:00.000-08:00

i am quite excited today because me and philip decided to stay in library all night long to study.. what a good student.. =p so... heRe we are.. with coffe and snacks.. (no ice cReam since quik bite has closed) here comes a new experience.. i dunno if this micght work since its my first time..^^ i hope i can get a 'productive' study.. like u* said.. got to keep awake until tomorrow.. so.. i better keep studyinn.. ;DDDDDDD i am very high-spirited right now.. i think i can read the whole chapter of the book.. =p

current favourite song : you are everything by glen fredly
current quote : "You know you truly love someone when everyday you meet is like the first time you fall in love" XDXDXDXD

cuoPLe houRs before NYC

2007-11-20T10:46:00.000-08:00

hmm.. i am a bit dizzy todae.. lets see.. i slept at 4 am in the morning in order to study econ.. huehh.. wiSh the professor could see my hard woRK.. imaginNee.. 4 am in the moRnning lee.. its like u didn sleep becos its already moRning againn.. OMG.. mucH work to do.. have to go to cLass.. the papeR.. makes me crazyy..a rRrgghhh..

current song : sedang ingin bercinta by dewa 19
such a bad song.. i hate it..dunno why.. plus it has been mixed with dangdut.. hate it..

*cant meet u although u near to me.. weird..

this is the disgusting artist who sing that song : look at his face.. hate him.. dont like the 'hair' on his chin.. makes me even hate him more..

2 days bfore NY!

2007-11-19T12:34:00.000-08:00

i thiNk all of the pRoblems are settled and i decided to give him a secoNd chance.. its faIR for all of us, he? very stressed lately because i am having an econ mid and i havent finish all the material yet.. hik2.. why its so confuSing.. or is it me who r too lazy..? I can't let myself studying infront of my laptop without browsing over the facebook, fs, or bla-bla-bla in every 1 hour.. itS distracting i meann..! pLus.. Luky went to my houSe and make me talk to him a LOT.. i think it took one hour.. poor him because he is haivng an exam today.. i met him on the elevator and he said, " im gonna be fail.. i can't concentrate at all.." oooPs... im sorrie.. u r such a nice bro to me.. hihihi.. i think i have 3 bros now in Mad since luki promise me to be my broo..
current mood : scared for the miD..
hope everybody will be doing fine on their midterms.. hihiihihi.. =D=D=D

* I havent seen u for 1.5 days..

...

2007-11-14T21:25:00.000-08:00

~i am too afraid too tell myself.. wht will happen next?
thinking of u i realize that nothing can make me happier than thiS..
but what will they say about uS?~

so busy lehh for the rest of the week.. *so sorry for sumone.. hee hee.. pliz try to understaNd me.. looking forward to go to NYC.. yaYYyyy..>< can't stand the feeling of happinesssSSS...

2007-11-11T13:54:00.000-08:00

HAPPY..~ =D

2007-11-10T23:50:00.000-08:00

so happy.. ^^ we had a game night and thats a blast.. seems like everyone enjoyed the night.. hmm.. except the truth or dare game.. hahaha.. its veRy funny because everyone seems like being confused of what he/she has to answer.. live long pokeer! want to play it agaiiinn.. yayYYy.. addicted to poker..

current mood : huMm.. happy
current activity : wondering when we will have poker night again..

just love pigLet *luv u..

overSlept againn.. very sillyy..><

2007-11-09T08:52:00.001-08:00

why i always oversLept... hik2.. feeL guiLty for myself for skipping the class.. hik2.. sorry jennn.. hav to borrow some noteS form u againnn.. >< btw, i had a nice dream today while skipping the class.. in my dream, i had a boyfriend.. its nice, because i had a boyfriend.. but, he seems just playing around with me because he is nice to all girls too.. it made me jealous in my dreammm.. hate that part! btw, its just a dream, not a big deaL.. i have to find a right boy, not that kind of boy.. hihihi..^^ *my bf in my dream is one of my friend..! It'S weirdd.. hahahahah.. current mood : feel guilty because of skipping class current song : cai hong ~ popular song by jay chouuu.. current activity : study... arrrgjhhhhHH... btw there is a funnny videoo.. just watch it!

2007-11-07T21:02:00.000-08:00

why so many friends of mine like cai hoNg? can not answer it by myself because i have fallen in love with that soNg too.. ~~ its so roMantic for people who are brokenhearted.. hahaha.. not me of couRse.. i dun have any boy 2 luv.. hahah.. i juST have many fRiends to care.. because friendshiP is moRe eternaL than love.. but maybe i will think in a diffeRent way if i have a boY.. hihi.. ~~ hoPE my pRince chaRming will come soonNN..^^ everybody wantS to be loved and so do i..

current mood : not sad and not veRy happy..
current song : I wanna be with u~jill Hsuu... such an old soNg..

today's lyrics : i wanna be with u by jill hsuu

沒力氣總是懶洋洋地
賴著你懷理頑皮嬉戲
是該做些事情心裡又甜蜜的
不想要不想要睜開眼睛

我和你頻率如此接近
沒壓力自在做我自己
第一次感受這種愛的決心
只想要只想要和你一起

I WANNA BE WITH YOU 愛你好幸福
想要和你建造一個愛的小屋
I WANNA BE WITH YOU 愛你好滿足
享受最甜美的束縛有你的呵護我不再孤獨

I have no strength, I'm always lazy
I blame you, and your naughty heart
I should be doing something, but there's something sweet in my heart
I don't want, I don't want, to open my eyes

You and I have such close frequencies
There's no pressure, I'm free to be myself
It's the first time I felt so determined to love
I only want, I only want, to be with you

I wanna be with you, loving you is so lucky
I want to build a loving home with you

I wanna be with you, loving you is so satisfying Enjoying the sweetest restraint, with your protection I won't be lonely again

hee.. suddenly i remembeR my pet shiroo.. and this dog and shiro are alike.. ^^ i miss u shiRoo.. wanna hug and kiSss uuu.. *muahhhh

come a little closer

2007-11-05T23:11:00.001-08:00

nice..^^

hate ESL.. ><

2007-11-05T22:54:00.000-08:00

all people say that all ESL ( not for 118) are very easy. buttt... i got BC instead of a/ab.. and i feel very superrrr duMbbb.. becauusee.. everyone says its easyyy... AHHahhhhh.. just wanna cRyyy.. i think i sLack off recentLy.. hik2..>< i have to wake uP.. please sumone reMind me if im lazy.. pliz-pliz-pliz.. but, what made me excited today is the snow.. its snowing foR a couple of minutes...! heehee.. fiRst snow in maDison.. ~romanticc.. isn't it? *remember winter sonata? yaPp.. i got the samE feeLing.. heehee..

current mooD : still saD.. but..
current song : come a little closer-lara
todays lyrics : come a little closer- OST ISWAK..~~ nice dRAma

Song title: Come near a little closer
Artist: Lara

默默在你的身後守候的我
I silently wait behind you
"Me me zai ni de sheng hou shou hu de wo"

多想看你不经意的笑容
Really want to see your accidental smile
"duo xiang kan ni bu jing yi de xiao rong"

或许我的心你不懂
May be you do not understand my heart
"huo xu wo de xin ni bu dong"

我会努力让你感动
I will try to flatter you
"wo hui nu li rang ni gan dong"

在你眼中有多麼笨拙的我
I'm the clumsy one in your eyes
"zai ni yan zhong duo me ben zuo de wo"

决不放弃追逐你的执著
I will not give up my will to follow you
"jue bu fang qi zhui zu ni de zhi zhuo"

只要你能再多些回应我
I just need you to give me some response
"zhi yao ni neng duo xie hui ying wo"

一个笑或点头全接受
I will accept a smile or a nod.
"yi ge xiao huo dian tou quan dou jie shou"

能不能再靠近一点点
Can I come near a little closer
"neng bu neng kao jing yi dian dian"

大声说出你所有感觉
Confess my feeling to you loudly
"da sheng shuo chu ni suo you gan jue"

别再紧紧关在只有自己的世界
Don't shut yourself in your own world anymore
"bie zai jin jin guan zai zhi you zi ji de shi jie"

温暖太阳为你迎接
The warm sun welcomes you
"wen nuan tai yang wei ni ying jie"

能不能再靠近一点点
Can I come near a little closer
"neng bu neng kao jing yi dian dian"

能不能再勇敢一点点
Can I be braver a little bit
"neng bu neng zai yong gan yi dian dian"

就算让我知道我永远只是单恋
Even if I knew it's always a one way love
"jiu shuan rang wo zhi dao wo yong yuan zi shi dan luen"

我也会藏著感谢
I will still keep my gratitude
"wo ye hui chang zhe gan xie"

笑著和你说再见
Smilling to you and say goodbye.
"xiao zhe he ni shuo zai jian"

hee.. look at the pet.. love itt.. muaH2.. heehee..^^

cuTe..

suNdae againnn.. soooo faSt..

2007-11-04T20:12:00.000-08:00

sooo boRing.. it's sundaE againN.. monDae is coMing.. >< dun feeL like in the mooD of studying.. huuuW.. *hatE skuL.. studyin in weNdt libRary all dae witH ocHa and siLviaa.. i met pHillip and felix tooo.. heehee* wHat a coincideNce.. ooOOhh.. how i don like moNdaee.. make me feeL sLeepy juSt to thiNk about moNdaee..

current mooD : saD
current song : cruSh- maNdy mooRe
current activity : typing and heaRing eko and bro taLking

today's quote : What lies behind us, and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
~ by Ralph Waldo Emerson ~

haha.. foR : muMu.. miSs u..

its satuRdae..

2007-11-03T20:44:00.000-07:00

dear diary..

not much to do in SatuRdae, as i give a break to myself... maybe tomorrow i will study hard for classes.. heehee.. ^^ i woke up at 12 pm.. so it had been half of the daee.. i do the tidy-up and the cooking foR lunch.. * i am learning fRom jeN : jenn, thx foR the inSpiration for being a gooD housewife =).. luv yaa hunNn~~ huMMm.. let's see.. had dinner witH lucky, bR, and bro in granite city.. i got a chicken paRmesan and a bowL of frencH onion souP.. * is it too mucH for a girL? well, not foR me.. ^^ *lucky, dun call me faT.. i will cRy.. hik2.. >< *justT look at uR self, panda boy.. heehee.. jk.. ^^ we're taLking about futuRe and paSt life about life paRtner.. and my bro was wondering if i am luky's wife.. * aarRrrgghh soo hate thiS paRt because he just mocked me all the tiMe.. huwee.. *hate hiMm.. huHhh.. but its Okay as long as i could own half of his lexuuuss... heehee.. jk.. ^^

current mood : confused and feeling guilty
current activity : sit and type
current song : all i want for chriStmas - mariah caRey
today's quote :No one realizes the beauty of love, until you're caught in it

peRseverence

2007-11-02T09:01:00.000-07:00

current mood : gloomy
current activity : typing and chatting in the wendt libraRy..
current song : always - ost Goong

starting fRom todaee.. i promised myself to be a betteR peRsonn * meaning : i will be reading the book before lectuRe, i will cover the mateRial if i skip the cLass, i will aLways try to understand and do my homework with my own effoRt, i will study foR midteRm a week befoRe, i will try to attend the cLass always, i will try to cook, and most importantLy.. i will try to be a cLean fReak like my brothers.. hee.. that's haRd.. because im not that type of "clean" persoNnn.. hik2.. perseverenncee.. aRgghHhhh.. * to all my friends who are feeling down, i just wanna let u know that i still care and always be wumone whom u can taLk to.. =)
today's quote : you can do it well if u work hard.. >< by : myself.. * deteRmination day

2007-10-31T21:47:00.000-07:00

i skipped 2 cLasses today because i foRgot to set my aLarmm.. *wahhHHh.. im cuRsed by bRiann - how daRe uu..~ uahHh.. it happenned.. so, it means that i have to boRrow some noteS fRom jen agaiinn.. *ooooPsss.. soRry heRbert and jeNn.. alwayS like thiS.. >< .. today i cooked foR lunch.. heee.. what a miRacLe.. ~ *actuaLLy im just reheat the fooD.. that's it..! but stiLL, it is homecooked, right? i mean i cooked it at home.. *soRry asiaN kitchenn.. no deLiveRy foR todae.. heehee.. becAuse im on the mood... no need to waste money on food, huhhh..? ^^ but too bad that everybody complained that the rice is " cRunchy " which means that it is not cooked enough.. >< heehee.. but that's alright because they had to eat it otherwise they wouldn't get any food at all.. a said, "no compain! or no food at all!" and they stopped complaining.. see.. how great am i? they are scared.. haahahahaha.. btw, im in progress to catch up my econ and matH.. so i have to go back studyinG.. heeheee.. next time longer..

* pS : sorry to keLvinn.. i dun mean it..

today's song : secret - by jay chou
today's mood : stressed
todays quote : "love is like war : easy to begin but hard to stop" by Henry Mencken

tiRing dae..

2007-10-30T19:37:00.000-07:00

current song : you and me - lifehouse
current mood : so so
current activity : typing and hearing the song " you and me"

deaR diary..
todaY.. i studied aLL dae witH jeN.. fuIhhh.. so tiRing.. why so haRd? hihihi.. actually we were not serious in studying nutrition because we sang the song "you and me " several times together and discussed about latest gossip.. huMmmph.. actuaLly we stopped because i remained jen that "gossip is a sin".. hihihi.. is it? if it is so why there are many gossip shows? haha.. btw, the nutRi exam is hard soo.. i dun quite suRe will be happy with the resuLT.. hoPing for the beSt.. huMmm.. then, we had dinner at HKW and again, were singing together while we were eating.. heehee.. so narciSst.. let's go on tRio on the christmas eko! we are the perfect match with the song : terbaik untukmu.. hahahahaha.. i also surprised that everyone seems to be so 'not busy'.. very unusuaL.. heehe..
oww.. i haven't write about the halloweenn.. huMmm.. the haLLoween was so cool.. but too bad i was not wearing costume.. a didnt have time to buy it so that i wore my own dress.. huMmm.. so sad because this is my first halloween and i wanted to wear a cool costume.. i planned to be a geisah.. which is so cooll.. hik2.. but when we entered the crowd to watch life house performance, i felt happy agaiinn.. hiyaaa.. life house is so cool and we were all jumping around when they sang 'first time'.. yayYYy.. it was sooo amusing.. but the most important is when they sang the song "you and me".. awww.. so touchiNg and romantic.. *ps : im gonna cRy if a boy sing to me that song.. heehheee.. the song is so me.. i like it veRy muChh.. go life house!
pLuss.. im gonna put the song shan hu hai by jay chou in my blog becauSe my favourite song, "you and me" are currently hijacked by briann.. >< class="Text">
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

*ps : keLvinnnn... did u eat the whole cake? i wanna cry if u didnt..

2007-10-26T22:14:00.000-07:00

no nutRition cLass todae.. that's mean i woke up a 'bit' later.. *11 am.. hiaa.. not good for girL, huh? hahaha.. don't be racisst.. hee.. btw, i managed to work on my hw before the discussion cLass.. hMmm.. i think only 1/4 of it.. but it still called "hard work", isn't it? i'm tRyinnggg... huwaahahh.. it's hard to be dilligeNt.. i dont understand why my bros and brian can stand studying in their rooms all day.. oh, i can just die if i lock myself in the room and feed my brain with those creepy things.. as keLvinn says-just go and dieee.. hyaaa.. live long keLvinn...! i agree with u.. except that u would prefer playing wow instead of hanging out wiht friends.. * no offense paL.. hMmm.. tomorrow i will go with my friends to devil's lake.. sound exciting, huh? but it takes a lot of my time.. hik2.. dunno what to feel.. i have an esl paper and a quiz on Monday.. btw, i am very sorry to siLvia *agaiinn.. (seems like a made a lot of mistake to you.. hik2) becauuseee she could not watch saw IV -which is her favourite- because of me! haa.. i dun bring my id, and i was being asked if i am above 17 because the film is rated r.. thenn, i realized that i dun bRing any id.. oh, Geezzzz.. can she just look into my face and decided that i am 18? why is everyone now think i am under 17? i wanna be aduLT.. and infact i amm! maybe i should put some more make-up to show that i am not a child.. heehee.. ^^

today's quote : *using indonesian because i just watched an indonesian movies.. heehee..

manusia memiliki mimpi * every people has a dream
ada yang mengejar dan mewujudkannya * some of them pursue their dreams and make them real
ada yang mundur dan membuangnya* some of them retreat and throw their dreams away
dan ada pula yang diam dan menyimpannya sepanjang hidupnya * the rest just do nothing and keep their dreams in their hearts forever
dan aku akan menjadi manusia yang terakhir itu * and i am one of the last person

fRom : "cinta pertama"

hmMmm.. happy b'dae eko

2007-10-25T19:28:00.000-07:00

today i woke up veRy early *8 am.. hmMmm.. and miraculously, i managed to drag myseLf to bathroom and sat on the toilet... what a progRess.. hee.. anndd today i bought a sweater from american eagLe.. hMmm.. i want to say sorry to siLvia whom i imitate.. hahaha.. *i bought almost the same sweater with hers but i think mine is nicer..^^ (no offense siL).. huMmpphh. got to be veRY busy this week with many pLants.. keLvin, i got a suRprise for yaa.. wait and see paL! haPpy bdae today to eko, may aLL uR wishes cum tRue.. haPpy sweet 19th.. haaahaaa.. dun be saD boy! it;s not the end of the world.. happy bdae to everyone.. luv u guyss.. dont forget the tReat! hee.. so coLd today and i was wearing a shoRt pants because of pLaying teNniss.. hahahaha.. i cannot believe it myself! dinner at noodles & company with my bros , luky, silvi, and bRiann.. ^^ hmMmpphh.. not bad, but it a little bit expensive..

Today's lyrics: Shan hu hai (coral sea) * its the song i often sing along with eko.. hheeeheee.. so narciStt..

zhuan shen li kai (ni you hua shuo bu chu lai) fen shou shuo bu chu lai
Turning around to leave, (You have something to say but remained speechless), unable to say it's over

hai niao gen yu xiang ai / zhi shi yi chang yi wai
The love between a seagull and a fish is only an accidental occurrence

wo men de ai （gei de ai） cha yi yi zhi cun zai (hui bu lai)
Differences had always existed in (the love you gave) our love (we can't go back)

feng zhong zhen ai (deng dai) jing lei ji cheng shang hai
The dust that gathers in the wind (ends up) accumulating to pain

*heyy.. i luv the lyRicss.. so romantic and toucHingg.. dont u think so?

2007-10-24T09:42:00.000-07:00

hmmMmpphh.. today i decided to skip matH 221 cLass as i was to sleepy to wake up.. I snooze my aLarm seveRal timeS.. *maybe 20 timEs.. untiL i wake uP foR the next cLass.. nuTRitionaL science.. and i still missS the buS and late foR thiS secoNd clasS foR 10 mins.. awww, i aLwayS late.. pLizz someone puLL me out of my bed and dRag me to the bathroomm.. hahhh... btw, i manage to put my eyelineR for 5 mins.. yayyYyy.. what a progressss! heee.. no need to skip class to put on make-uP, huh? so silly of me.. and there are 2 news:good one and bad one.. let start with the good one : i got 20/20 for china midterm.. and tha bad is: i got 68 foR ecoN.. ohh.. i wanna cRy.. why always the AB? *its 81.75% fRom lowest.. haaa.. i dunno what should i feeL. happy or sad.. huwww... the most important thing, hMmm.. i'm too excited with the halloween.. let's all go to the fReakfest and dress-uP! halloween is coming to town..!

*Today's lyrics = i am learning chinese. so i will post some of rainie yang's lyrics..( tittle= zhi xiang ai ni)

Zhi xiang ai ni- i just wanna love u

Hao xiang mei tian zheng kai yan jing jiu neng kan dao ni- i really want to see you everyday i open my eyes
Wo zhi dao wo ou er you yi dian ren xing- i know i can be a bit difficult sometimes

Bu guan ni zuo ren he jue ding-i dont care what decision you've made

Jiu jing ai wo hai shi tao bi-whether u would love me or escape me

sorry, wo hai shi bu hui fang qi ai ni- sorry, i still wont give up on loving you

first time..hee..^^

2007-10-23T09:51:00.000-07:00

hMmm.. actually i don't know what to wRite in this first blog.. the first time i said that i want to write, kelvin just got enthusiastic.. *kelvin=my neighbouR.. he explained bla-bla-bla-bla-bla.. and i'm just "hmmm.. ok-hmm.. yeaHh.. hmm-sounds fun" ohh whatever.. by the way when i am writing this blog, which mean right now, i just finished my midterm.. kind of sad.. because i dont know if i answer them correctly.. plus im 5 mins late for the mid.. Oh, Gezz.. why am i always late for the important occasion? is this some kind of disease or something..? well, i usually late for 25 mins in the first lecture or overslept.. haaa.. that kind of weird for a giRL.. heyy,, dont judge a peRson by her'his gendeR! it's not faiR.. oh, i got to finish my maTh homewoRk.. due one hour laterR.. haaa...see.. i'm a procastinator!