Thursday, January 31, 2008
i am having a dilemma right now.. drop or dont drop? wahhh.. huMmm.. teateR is very confuSInng.. i read the play several times and i don clearly understand all the meaning.. wahhH.. why is literature is requireD? don underStad at all.. i love to read but just hate to analyze or learn what i read.. i hate to take it seriously.. and i hate to write essay.. justt hate it! it seems hard for me.. i am not ready for this.. hmMMm.. math 213 is a better choice i guess.. i really want to take literature in college.. haha.. hate it so muhchH.. feel so dumb in writing essays, make me lose my confident of myself.. huhUHUhuhuhuhuhuuhuHUH.. feel dizzy right now.. guess i better sleep.. love to sleep.. can i get an A only by sleeping? hahahhaaHAHA.. i hope there will be a sleeping 101 class in the futuRE.. i guess i'll have A+++ in that couRse.. or dreaming 101? hihIHIhi.. im a day-dreameR so i gueSs i can get full mark fo thoSee... zzZzzzZzzZzz...
what we could have been, 2:17 PM.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
today i feel better.. i don know why either.. maybe my mood is just not too good on the las couples of days.. sometimes only time can take our worries away.. and that works for me.. although i dunno how its gonna be in future time.. but at least for now.. i feel much better for myself.. haha..
today, i was indeed very silly.. i went to van hise for class and i searched for B floor.. which is not exists.. and i opened my uw account.. and realize that its in van vleck.. not van hiSe.. very silly lahH.. and the worst thing is.. im searching for the room B137 which is doesnt exist in van vleck either.. i asked someone and he said.. "sorry, i cant help u.." and after severeal minutes of searching, i opened my uw account again.. and guess wahtt..? it is B317 no B137.. woWOoo.. today i am a veryy uMmm.. *i dun wanna say bad things about myself.. hahaha.. so i rush to B317 and its already 10 mins late.. haha.. wish my mood wont change.. i don wanna remember things that make me feel very lonely right now.. last semester i was very independent.. and i wanna change it.. because im a big girl now..
today, i was indeed very silly.. i went to van hise for class and i searched for B floor.. which is not exists.. and i opened my uw account.. and realize that its in van vleck.. not van hiSe.. very silly lahH.. and the worst thing is.. im searching for the room B137 which is doesnt exist in van vleck either.. i asked someone and he said.. "sorry, i cant help u.." and after severeal minutes of searching, i opened my uw account again.. and guess wahtt..? it is B317 no B137.. woWOoo.. today i am a veryy uMmm.. *i dun wanna say bad things about myself.. hahaha.. so i rush to B317 and its already 10 mins late.. haha.. wish my mood wont change.. i don wanna remember things that make me feel very lonely right now.. last semester i was very independent.. and i wanna change it.. because im a big girl now..
what we could have been, 11:11 AM.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
i hv never been so lonely like this.. it seems like i don hv any friend.. its just so different from my last semester.. i was really happy.. i never feel lonely.. everyone was there for me.. no barriers between us to be together.. it seems little awkward now if we meet each other because of me.. everyone's having a hard time.. and thats because of me.. if i could turn back the time.. i prefer not to have annything special.. just become friends and be able to play together are just fine.. sometimes there are things u can't change.. and when u look back, u will regret all the things u did.. i miss the times when we were playing cards in friday night until 1 am in the morning.. or when we play wii or ps together.. or just having dinner together in someone's house.. its just more than perfect.. no worries between us.. i really miss those times.. i really want to say sorry for myself and all my friends.. never thought it will end like this..
what we could have been, 2:59 PM.
Monday, January 28, 2008
i finally in maDisn today.. and i slept like a baby until 9 pm ad slept again until 3 30 am morning..! i can't sleep anymore.. too much sleep alreadyy..! sooo this is what ppl call jet lag.. huhuhu.. so toRtuRing when u awake with no one to talk to.. hik2..
i wonder sometimes what is the difference between adults and children..? i was so shocked when the officer at the immigration ask me how old am i.. *maybe because i was alone and confused why there's a little girl travelig on her own.. he asked me : " How old r u ? u look like 12.." whaattt... 12...! *@#$&*% that's very sick.. dont u see im 18..? hahhahaha.. *sometimes i feel lucky because if someone think u r 12, u r a child in their heads.. and i like to be a little girl because i just love cute things.. i just cant chage me the way i am.. ad what i learnt this holiday is.. if u r an adult u can hide ur feelings ad pretend nothing happenned in front of the society, adults are just considering how other ppl think about them, they just cant be true to their hearts sometimes.. and that is a big no-no to children.. if they hate someone they just yell at them and sometimes just punch their friends, or.. just cry and dont wanna play with them anymore.. and i just realized taht i have maybe 50% of their character.. its just.. so childish, and i hate it.. (not that i have ever punch someone's face) everyone who knows me must know what im writing.. so here i am.. trying to be a big girl without complaining about anything.. because big girls dont cry.. i ve been very selfish in past times.. just think what i like, what makes me happy.. and i just wanna say sorry..
i wonder sometimes what is the difference between adults and children..? i was so shocked when the officer at the immigration ask me how old am i.. *maybe because i was alone and confused why there's a little girl travelig on her own.. he asked me : " How old r u ? u look like 12.." whaattt... 12...! *@#$&*% that's very sick.. dont u see im 18..? hahhahaha.. *sometimes i feel lucky because if someone think u r 12, u r a child in their heads.. and i like to be a little girl because i just love cute things.. i just cant chage me the way i am.. ad what i learnt this holiday is.. if u r an adult u can hide ur feelings ad pretend nothing happenned in front of the society, adults are just considering how other ppl think about them, they just cant be true to their hearts sometimes.. and that is a big no-no to children.. if they hate someone they just yell at them and sometimes just punch their friends, or.. just cry and dont wanna play with them anymore.. and i just realized taht i have maybe 50% of their character.. its just.. so childish, and i hate it.. (not that i have ever punch someone's face) everyone who knows me must know what im writing.. so here i am.. trying to be a big girl without complaining about anything.. because big girls dont cry.. i ve been very selfish in past times.. just think what i like, what makes me happy.. and i just wanna say sorry..
what we could have been, 2:46 AM.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
i finally in indo now.. i have thought many activities to do here but still i dunno why i get bored here.. seems like i am too lazy to do the task i have arranged earlier.. but still here is my goal in indo :
1. get slimmer and lose weight --> i am pretty sure that i will not satisfy this goal! i have an uncontrollable appetite when it comes with the word 'food' especially sushiii... wahHHhh..
2. practice piano and put some video in this blog as the evidence of me practicing piano.. ~ still, i think i will not satisfy this either..
3. read as many books as i can when i have spare time.. ~hmmmm.. sometimes i am too lazy.. soo... i dont think i will do this.. T.T
4. go shopping with my indo friends.. ~this will definitely satisfied!
5. watch horror movies with elice ( at least 5 movies!) ~ i am pretty sure this will happen since me and elice are horror movie freaks!
6. change my hairstyle that will surprise everyone when im back to madison.. ~ hmm.. maybe i will dye my hair or perm it..? or make it more straight than before..? still thinking..
7. take many photoS with my cute shiRooo and post them in this blog.. ~its gonna be hard since shiro always running around all the time..! he cant behave well if im around! is it means he is too happy if he sees me? wHahhHh..
8. go to medan to see handaRa and his cute puppies.. ~love it!
9. go to wang lee hom concert on 11 Jan 08 at Sands..~ i will ask for the tickets soon! i have to see him because he's too hot!
10. meet my friends at my old school.. ~ wahhh.. miss them soo mucHh.. * muahh2
so.. thats all for this winter break and i hope i could satisfy all of themm..
huMmm.. thinking about madiSon and how far i have to go to reach madiSon.. i got a trauma becuase i recently had the most torturing flight i ever had in my life.. it is when i flew form La to Taipei.. its like a total hell for me.. 18 hours in plane with stomachache, moreover.. i puked 3 times! can u believe it? It was the first time i puke at a plane! and i knew everyone including the stewardess are having a hard time because of this.. hik2.. i was just so sick that i didn't eat anything on the plane.. it was a total hell for me.. and i think it was because i drank too much coke? i dunno laHh.. dun wanna experience the same thing again..!
happy new yeaR everyone! here is a wish fRom pooh family..!
1. get slimmer and lose weight --> i am pretty sure that i will not satisfy this goal! i have an uncontrollable appetite when it comes with the word 'food' especially sushiii... wahHHhh..
2. practice piano and put some video in this blog as the evidence of me practicing piano.. ~ still, i think i will not satisfy this either..
3. read as many books as i can when i have spare time.. ~hmmmm.. sometimes i am too lazy.. soo... i dont think i will do this.. T.T
4. go shopping with my indo friends.. ~this will definitely satisfied!
5. watch horror movies with elice ( at least 5 movies!) ~ i am pretty sure this will happen since me and elice are horror movie freaks!
6. change my hairstyle that will surprise everyone when im back to madison.. ~ hmm.. maybe i will dye my hair or perm it..? or make it more straight than before..? still thinking..
7. take many photoS with my cute shiRooo and post them in this blog.. ~its gonna be hard since shiro always running around all the time..! he cant behave well if im around! is it means he is too happy if he sees me? wHahhHh..
8. go to medan to see handaRa and his cute puppies.. ~love it!
9. go to wang lee hom concert on 11 Jan 08 at Sands..~ i will ask for the tickets soon! i have to see him because he's too hot!
10. meet my friends at my old school.. ~ wahhh.. miss them soo mucHh.. * muahh2
so.. thats all for this winter break and i hope i could satisfy all of themm..
huMmm.. thinking about madiSon and how far i have to go to reach madiSon.. i got a trauma becuase i recently had the most torturing flight i ever had in my life.. it is when i flew form La to Taipei.. its like a total hell for me.. 18 hours in plane with stomachache, moreover.. i puked 3 times! can u believe it? It was the first time i puke at a plane! and i knew everyone including the stewardess are having a hard time because of this.. hik2.. i was just so sick that i didn't eat anything on the plane.. it was a total hell for me.. and i think it was because i drank too much coke? i dunno laHh.. dun wanna experience the same thing again..!
happy new yeaR everyone! here is a wish fRom pooh family..!
what we could have been, 9:02 PM.
